After the Sunset (2004) IMDB rating: 6.20 Plot: After a successful last score, a master thief retires to an island paradise. His lifelong nemesis, a crafty FBI agent, washes ashore to ensure he’s making good on his promise. The pair soon enters into a new game of cat-and-mouse.

find and download After the Sunset in iPod/iPhone quaity

Actors: Brosnan Pierce,Cheadle Don,Harrelson Woody,Penn Chris,Garity Troy,Williamson Mykelti,Babatunde Obba,Hornsby Russell,Linn Rex,Curtis-Brown Robert,Moses Mark,Bowen Michael,Ledard Tony,Action,Comedy,Crime,

How's this poem to my girlfriend?
*Empty Within Turned Bright*

In luminous rays of light
A flux of passionate comfort
In its solidity
Within a prestigious heartbeat
Like an overempowered knight
Become the huble man He once was
My feelings for whom
Exemplifies unself-discouragement
In every sunrise and sunset we share together
My love for you as fond as
Dawn corresponding from night

---

its really good
Chase | Dec 26, 2009

---

If someone gave that to me I would love them forever <3

It’s really good, she’ll apreciate it greatly YuYuYu | Dec 26, 2009

---

OMG that is the best love poem in the world your girlfriend is gonna love it you have no idea how much I wish someone would write me that poem! She is gonna love it I promise and if she doesn’t then she’s not worth it.
Jenna | Dec 26, 2009

---

i don’t understand what it means…Then again I hate poetry and i don’t have a romantic bone in my body Go Ahead and Give it to her
Sharkme | Dec 26, 2009

---

I love the passion, energy and thought that you put into your poem for your girl. I get your poem and I think that the sentiment is romantic.

But I think that some parts are a little wordy or awkward in terms of the phrasing. But you have poetic license, so feel free to experiment with the language.

Here are the parts I am referring to though…

In ‘luminous’ rays of light (light is luminous so the meaning seems over stressed)

Within a ‘prestigious’ heartbeat (don’t understand the sentiment here)

‘Exemplifies unself-discouragement’ (sounds more academic than poetic/romantic)

One more thing…I think corresponding ‘to’ is better grammatically than corresponding ‘from’.

Wishing you all the best!
coolwater | Dec 26, 2009

Ghost Town (2008) IMDB rating: 7.80 Plot: Bertram Pincus is a man whose people skills leave much to be desired. When Pincus dies unexpectedly, but is miraculously revived after seven minutes, he wakes up to discover that he now has the annoying ability to see ghosts. Even worse, they all want something from him, particularly Frank Herlihy who pesters him into breaking up the impending marriage of his widow Gwen. That puts Pincus squarely in the middle of a triangle with spirited result.

Download Ghost Town

Actors: Kinnear Greg,Carlos Jordan,Badalucco Jr. Joseph,Hutchison Brian,Simpson Tyree Michael,Gervais Ricky,Mandvi Aasif,Lee Raymond J.,Mazzarino Joey,Oscar Brad,Comedy,Fantasy,Romance,

How is it in Mazatlan right now? Is it a ghost town or are businesses open and people out?
I’ve been planning a trip from May 13 to 20 and want to hear from people on the ground there what’s its like. I’m not super concerned about the flu, but more curious about the atmosphere and available amenities.
Thanks!

---

I live here in Mazatlan. It is a little quiet since alot of the tourists have been scared off, but the flu was nowhere near here. Restaurants and bars are scheduled to go back to normal tomorrow (cantinas were closed and bars/restaurants had an 11 pm mandatory closing time) I have heard schools will go back to session on the 15th. Come on down! There is plenty to do!

Sans | May 05, 2009

---

As far as I know Sinaloa is one of the only states where there have not been any confirmed cases. So everything should be business as usual there, unlike Acapulco or Cancun.
Lprod | May 04, 2009

---

Theres nothing to be worried about!

Believe me i just came from there the weather is perfect everything is perfect!

The local people said me that all the "swine flu" thing it’s a cover from the mexican goverment, that theres something very shaddy behind all these stuff!
mDfkr | May 04, 2009

Red Heat (1988) IMDB rating: 5.40 Plot: Arnold Schwarzenegger plays a Russian policeman sent after a Russian drug dealer who has escaped to the United States and is awaiting extradition in Chicago. Jim Belushi plays his temporary partner on the Chicago police. When the drug dealer escapes, the two police must overcome their differences in order to recapture him.

Actors: Belushi James,Fishburne Laurence,Schwarzenegger Arnold,Boyle Peter,O’Ross Ed,Bright Richard,Smith J.W.,Jennings Brent,Vince Pruitt Taylor,Hagerty Michael G.,James Brion,Jason Peter,Action,Crime,Comedy,Thriller,

Bumps on Outer Labia?
They are only on my outer labia. Never on the inner labia or vagina The don’t burn or itch unless I scratch them. There is about 10 of them scattered randomly. They dnt look like any std I’ve looked at. I had them about 3 months ago, and then they went away for the most part. And last week I started noticing them again. They aren’t red or blistery. They don’t ooze any sort of anything. They are just there. I’ve tried to pop one or two in the shower and it is sort of like popping a zit (best way to describe what the stuff looks like that comes out and the bump itself) and the it bleeds quiet a lot. Again, the don’t hurt or irritate me or anything, they are just there. And its embarrassing mostley. I don’t have any symtoms of any stds, no pain or sickness. No abmormal discharge.

The doctor is a no-go for me right now, like I’m sure everyone would suggest. Has anyone else had this problem and do they know what it is? At first I thought it was heat rash of some sort but its winter now and they just came back.

You can send me an e-mail or whatever. I just want to know what’s going on.

There was a similar post I found where it seemed as tho the grl had the same problem, but there were no answers. Someone please help?
I’m only 20 and Ive been shaving basically since 15. Ive had ingrown hairs before but none like these (if that is the case). I stopped shaving for a month and they were still there. I’m worried if it is some sort of skin issue, that it might spred if I pop them.

---

Do you shave? Sometimes I get those and it’s just an ingrown hair. I sterilize pointy-nosed tweezers and usually get the hair out pretty easily. The ingrown hair irritates the skin so it will bleed when you squeeze it. Anyways, that’s my experience with these annoying bumps.
queefy | Nov 20, 2009

---

Hi,

From my own experiences - I used to be allergic to my own sweat that I was burning off during exercise - during a time in my life when I used to have considerable toxins stored within my body fat. I eventually learned that itching or rashes are symptoms of maladies that could become much worse if never healed with good choices.

Although I have seen that most root problems for ’skin’ issues for myself and others has usually always been from long and or short term allergic reactions to ’something’ COMBINED WITH a weakened lymph liver kidney skin and immune systems - IF the following symptoms would ever occur - I think the worst rash one might possibly have rapidly acquired is from deadly bacterial meningitis, BUT bacterial meningitis would be VERY RARE.

The two quotes below are from: <> http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bacterial_M eningitis <>

<>

Empire Records (1995) IMDB rating: 6.30 Plot: Empire Records is going to be turned into a Music Town. It is up to the wacky employees to figure out a way to raise enough money to help their boss Joe keep the store from changing hands. They also deal with problems amongst themselves, love, and a has-been spoiled rock star named Rex Manning.

Actors: LaPaglia Anthony,Caulfield Maxwell,Cochrane Rory,Whitworth Johnny,Embry Ethan,Shivers Coyote,Sexton III Brendan,Wills James ‘Kimo’,Bode Ben,Bolen Gary,Comedy,Drama,

If Mithra was born on the 25th December why do Zoroastrians honour him in August/September?
Mithra originated in Persia as did Zoroastrianism.

Zoroastrians still honour him on the 16th day of each month and the whole of the 7th month in their calender which equates to the the 21st August to the 21st September in the Gregorian calender.

Mithra was first recorded in Rome in approx 110ce by Lucius Plutarchus, Mithra was loved by the Roman Infantry and as a male only religions it spread all over the Roman Empire.

December 25th the festival of Dies Natalis Solis Invicti, "the birthday of the unconquered sun." the date after the winter solstice was never connected officially with Mithra in Rome.

Mithra was born from a rock, all the crops and useful animals emerged from a bull he killed. He was charged with protecting the first human couple and rode a chariot out to sea to take his place with the immortals.

106 year old scholarly study of Mithra
http://www.sacred-texts.com/cla/mom/mom0 2.htm
Zoroastrian calender
http://ahura.thelalis.com/#

Please do don’t past links to websites that base their research on Dan Brown’s Da Vinci Code or Zeitgeist but any scholarly research welcomed.
@ Maurog II - I’ve provided a 106 year old scholary study which says Mithra was never offically connected with Dec 25th (maybe some soilders did but not Rome) what evidence have you got?
@ Maurog II - I’m not a wiki knocker, I like that website and appreciate the effort people make to typing out info from scholary sources onto it.

But one line which doesn’t even quote a reference - poor show surprised you used it

---

*applause* I too have never found a a scholarly reference connecting Mithra with Dec 25. (Although I am familiar with the festival of the Unconquered Sun) You’ve stumbled onto one of the great urban legends of religion. unfortunately, the more it gets repeated, the more people are convinced it must be true even though they’ve seen no historical evidence for it.

Same issue with the Easter/Eostre connection. We’re not even sure the goddess Eostre existed, much less when her celebration might have been. And all of that aside, Easter would still have been celebrated in southern Europe long before anyone had encountered this out-of-the-way goddess.

Nightwind: Mwa ha ha! | Oct 21, 2009

---

that isnt correct and they dont…

JESUS IS THE ONE WE CELEBRATE NOW ON THAT DAY…whats the problem?
Fireball | Oct 21, 2009

---

Let me borrow an atheists line, "There ain’t no Mithra."
imrod | Oct 21, 2009

---

Thank you.

Folks who use Isis and Virgin in the same sentence are dingbats as well.
?Machine Head? | Oct 21, 2009

---

Who told you he was born on 25th? He wasn’t!

Sol Invictus, the Unconquered Sun was. He is associated with Mithras of Mithraism, not Mithra of Zoroastrianism.

It’s the birthday of Mithras, who is a sun god like Helios.
Not of Mithra who is more like a supreme deity of Truth and Judgement.
Maurog II | Oct 21, 2009

---

There’s a whole lot of that "the Jesus myth is copied from other religions" crowd who could use a lesson on how to use Snopes.
Rockadayjohnny | Oct 21, 2009

---

Mithra is born out of folklore. We dealing with Reality here.
conundrum | Oct 21, 2009

---

MIthra wasn’t ever believed in the Zoroastrian religion to be born Dec 25. I actually had the rare opportunity to meet and actual Zoroastrian. Rare I know since there is only about 100,000 left. He was of course from Iran. Do you know Zoroastrians actually believe in Jesus Christ. (not necessarily as a Savior but a King). It is their belief the 3 Magi (wisemen) were Zoroastrian who traveled to the kings birth. Epiphany is part of their history and celebrations
titania_woodland_fairy_queen | Oct 21, 2009

---

That is the month of Virgo, astrologically. Any meaning there? You’re lots more studious than I am; it’s lucky I studied so much in the first 50 years of my life, because I intend to spend the rest of my days having fun!
DiggerRama | Oct 21, 2009

Now and Then (1995) IMDB rating: 6.00 Plot: Four childhood friends gather together to prepare for the birth of Chrissey’s baby. While together, they reminisce about when they were kids in 1970.

Actors: Sawa Devon,Sparrow Walter,Azaria Hank,Comedy,Drama,Romance

Why would my husband refuse sex?
My husband refuses sex, unless he’s in the mood! Why is it about what he wants? I’ve had several times that I have not been in the mood yet I comply. I don’t act like it a duty and I ensure he has been fully satisfied, but when it’s his turn, he just puts his foot down and says No! his excuses are "I’m tired", and his favorite "I’m Full!" Plus when we do have sex I end up doing all the work and giving him oral pleasure and of course it’s not returned. I’ve even thought about looking for someone else, because sometimes I feel that if he can’t provide or care what I need then I might as well look for someone now that is more compatible with me instead of waiting when I’m older and just S.O.L! Plus he’s 11yrs older than me, so I wonder if that also has something to do with it, but it’s never affected us before. Also my other problem, is he pretty much refuses to tell me he Loves me, I either have to force it out of him, which makes it pretty meaningless, he tells me "I don’t need to hear it, Why do you?" I don’t think he is cheating, he just seems to be uninterested. If anyone has gone through this and was able to make their marriage survive please tell me how, because I’m getting pretty tired of dealing with this and losing hope.

---

i volunteer my services. but you might not be able to hear me tell you that i love you if you are sitting on my face.
Jery E | Dec 12, 2009

---

He must be banging someone else…
you look good to me, so i don’t know what his problem is.
FearOpie! | Dec 12, 2009

Kill Bill: Vol. 1 (2003) IMDB rating: 8.20 Plot: “The Bride” was once part of a group of world class female assassins, until the group leader, “Bill” and the other assassins turn against her. Four years later “The Bride” awakens from the coma the assassins left her in and heads out to seek bloody revenge. Unlike conventional movies, Kill Bill is told in chapter format making the narrative flow more like a book than a film.

Online Movies World

Actors: Madsen Michael,Carradine David,Chiba Sonny,Liu Chia Hui,Parks Michael,Bowen Michael,Kunimura Jun,Ohba Kenji,Adventure,Action,Thriller,

What is Quintin Tarintino's Best Movie?
I like Reservoir Dogs and Kill Bill vol 1.

---

His best movie so far is … Pulp Fiction.!!!!

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0110912/

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wZBfmBvvo tE

… and not only the movie, the soundtrack is great too.

————————————

JACK | Oct 14, 2009

---

Kill bil Vol 1 hands down.
flakyfresh | Oct 10, 2009

---

sin city… is that even by quintin tarintino
Vicky | Oct 10, 2009

---

Pulp Fiction
mickey | Oct 10, 2009

---

Pulp Fiction.
Mimzy | Oct 10, 2009

---

i liked kill bill because of the fight scenes but reservoir dogs was just an all around better movie.
Southern by the Grace of God | Oct 11, 2009

---

I personally am not a big fan of his movies, but I do like Death Proof.
Mutt | Oct 12, 2009

---

Kill Bill 1 & 2–leaning more towards one
audioworld | Oct 13, 2009

---

Pulp Fiction and Jackie Brown
Tilly | Oct 14, 2009

Real Genius (1985) IMDB rating: 6.70 Plot: Two brilliant teenagers head a team of young geniuses developing a laser for what they believe is a class project. When they find out that their professor intends to turn their work over to the government for use as a weapon, they decide to ruin his plans.

Actors: Kilmer Val,Jarret Gabriel,Atherton William,Gries Jon,Peralta Stacy,Ades Daniel,Aybar Andres,Giambalvo Louis,Lauter Ed,Shull Charles,Billingslea Beau,Parks Charles,Frye Sean,Comedy,Romance,Sci-Fi,

I totally envy my best friend…is there any hope for me?
Okay first of all i really suffer with self-esteem issues…and depression…which has left me really introverted until people get to know me…people judge me as just this depressed loser…because i was really sad during my first year of high school thats all people know me for…i’m now trying to be more open and confident thanks to my best friend. She really got to know the real me and has helped me through so much…i cant imagine what i’d do without her. But i find that because she’s so amazing…really popular, an absolute genius, beautiful and pretty damn awesome that i just fade into the background whenever she’s around…i find my confidence drop everytime she’s applauded for getting 100% in tests, when people walk straight past me and start talking to her then say hi to me and walk away, just how everyones so adoring towards her. And i feel so bad about it…which is crazy i mean i should be happy for her, but i just feel useless all the time because of it. I cant ever tell her, but she really wants to help me out of my sadness…i love her to bits…but sometimes i just wish she’d fail at something….is there any hope for me?

---

well you should talk to your friend about this.
if she really wants to help you she will understand.
the best thing you could do is talk to her.
and when people come up to her to talk to her just try to like somehow
get into the conversation or tell your friend to get you in the conversation.
CiCi | Dec 16, 2009

---

awh! yes of course theres hope. remmeber just be yourself, walk down those hallways and feel confident. people should like you for who you are, and then maybe your friend may feel jealous of youu. you dont know, she might already. sometimes i feel sorrttaa like this, i just lost my bestfriend, i made a new one tho. but sometimes i get to "overprotective" and i only want her to talk to me, and somemore. i just dont want to loose another friend that i get to close witthhh
hopethishelpsss;D
Megan H | Dec 16, 2009

---

I know you have had those problems and they are very difficult I understand, but try not to put yourself down further. If you are jealous of her, then work your way towards those goals, eg: 100% in tests, getting to know more people.
Don’t bring your troubles down even further… What you least want is your friend ditching you for being jealous.
Best wishes
P.S. I wasn’t calling you jealous, I was just saying that in case your friend found out about these thoughts lol LemonZest | Dec 16, 2009

---

Thank God we have a God that loves us all and will not leave us nor forsake us. What am I saying, you are a fine person and you need not evey any one. Now start saying to your self on a daily bases that you are fine in and out and you are good at any thing you lay your hands on. You have to change your way of thinking in every way, for the bible says as a man think so he is. write a letter to your self ans read it daily too, begin by reading it allow and not share with your friend. Now if some one thought of you like this would you like this. and this is how you start to focus on your inner self too ask what do you want and what are you most afraid of and why.
but i will ask you to try and pray to God to help you as well. get on line http://www.selfgrowth.com. lot of things to motivate you. take care and God bless
bimfule | Dec 16, 2009

---

I’ve just helped a friend of mine through a similar thing, and now she is quite confident and assertive. Here are some of the tips I gave her:
1. Buy a pack of post-it notes, and write something positive about yourself on each of them. I got my friend to write ‘you are a strong, beautiful woman’, ‘you are fun to be around’, ‘you are worth peoples admiration and respect’ and stuff like that, and she added some of her own. Then I got her to stick them around her flat and read them every time she saw it.
2. Take up a hobby. If you already have one, start another one, because that is something that is yours, that you are good at, and no-one can take that away from you.
3. Don’t be afraid to involve yourself in a conversation. It’s actually quite rude for people to be ignoring you, so don’t allow it! Don’t be rude, just join in when you have something to contribute.

Your friend obviously cares about you, so you need to be honest with her about how her apparent success at everything effects you.It us likely that there are things about you that she envies.

Hope you find happiness, hun.
Mary | Dec 16, 2009

---

Oh boy, if your friend is so amazing…really popular, an absolute genius, beautiful and pretty damn awesome ……then why don’t we all just go outside and kill ourselves right now eh?

With those kind of people on the planet, what hope or room is there for the rest of us. WoW.

If you ever watch couples walk along together ~ just the average Mum n Dad, just watch them properly and wonder ‘What did / do they see in each other’? And, Why did they get together in the first place? And, What is keeping them together now?

When your parents came together, there were all kinds of people in the rock, fashion, cinema world that were icons, but they picked each other for a some reason. They found something in each other just as someone will find something in you ~ away from your SPECTACULAR friend.

She may well be ‘’so amazing…really popular, an absolute genius, beautiful and pretty damn awesome” etc, but she cannot be everyTHING to everyone, and not all of the time either.

You have one thing going for you, and that is You, your individuality.

Don’t try and compete with her, because that would be dumb. She is already streets ahead of you because you have put her there by being awe of her.

Love your friend for who is and for how she helps you, and treasure that, but do not envy it. Should she ever fail at something, or look bad over something, then she has a long long way to drop from the top of the pedestal that you’ve put her on.

It would really hurt to ‘hit the ground’ from up there.

Take care.
Sash.
sashtou | Dec 16, 2009

Jeepers Creepers (2001) IMDB rating: 5.40 Plot: Brother and sister, Trish and Darry are taking the long country road home on a break from college when along the way, they encounter a reckless driver trying to ram them off the road - the driver being a strange looking man donning shabby clothing, who seems to have sinister intentions. The siblings soon find themselves investigating the basement of an old decrepit chapel in the middle of nowhere, where there lies horrors that they least expect.

look at

Actors: Long Justin,Breck Jonathan,Smith Brandon,Evans Jeffrey William,Cherry Patrick,Beshara Jon,Raulerson Steve,Tarantini Tom,Haze William,Kahana Kim,Adventure,Drama,Horror,Thriller,

Which of these horror films is most suitable for a 14-year-old?
I am having a halloween movie night with several friends and we want to watch a scary film as it will be halloween, so yeah.
I was wondering, which of these will be a good scary film but won’t haunt us for a long time, like we’ll get over them in a few days maximum:
Halloween (original or remake, which is best?)
The Grudge
Jeepers Creepers 2
What Lies Beneath

Or if you have any other suggestions that are certificate 15, that’s great.
We have watched the following and found them scary but not horrifying-
Sixth Sense
Jeepers Creepers 1
The Others
The Ring

Thanks!

---

Phantasm— only a couple boobie shots in the whole film

The Tall Man | Oct 27, 2009

---

jeepers creeper
dark choco | Oct 27, 2009

---

sixth sense
SING | Oct 27, 2009

---

All of them.
Wanker's Cramp | Oct 27, 2009

---

I’m not sure but ive been tolf the grudge is good. Baseides watch saw bowow | Oct 27, 2009

---

The Grudge and What lies beneath are good. Jeepers Creepers 2 I heard was teribble and another good one is shutter!
Bella | Oct 27, 2009

---

well i havent seen any of those but the grudge and halloween and they were both pretty scary. id say halloween
Calie | Oct 27, 2009

---

the old halloween movies and jeepers creepers. u should also watch the old sequels of friday the 13th and a nightmare on elm street.
taylor swift fan | Oct 27, 2009

---

I would like to suggest Ghostbusters , an oldie but still good Angi | Oct 27, 2009

---

If Jeepers Creepers 1 is ok then go with jeepers creepers 2
Ted | Oct 27, 2009

---

Saw 1 Seamus | Oct 27, 2009

---

Sixth Sense definitely not scary
any Halloween movie. Great to watch on Halloween but..it’s so cliche it’s not terrifying.
The Grudge is not that scary(I consider it not). Just try to get over the fact that you have to GO INTO that house to be cursed.
Sanji | Oct 27, 2009

---

I think any of them are fine well im 14 too but horror flicks dont really scare me much soo I would probally go with the grudge if u want something that wont really scare you too bad. Jeepers creepers 2 was pretty good but a lil scary.
??

Goodfellas (1990) IMDB rating: 8.60 Plot: This film views the mob lives of three pivotal figures in the 1960’s and 70’s New York. Ray Liotta plays Henry Hill, a local boy turned gangster in a neighborhood full of the roughest and toughest. Joe Pesci plays Tommy Devito, a pure bred gangster, who turns out to be Henry’s best friend. Robert De Niro plays Jimmy Conway, the man who puts the two of them together, and runs some of the biggest hijacks and burglaries the town has ever seen. After an extended jail sentence, Henry must sneak around the back of the local mob boss, Paulie Cicero, played by Paul Sorvino, to live the life of luxury he has always dreamed of. In the end, the friends end up in a hell of a jam, and must do anything they can to save each other, and stay alive.

Actors: De Niro Robert,Liotta Ray,Pesci Joe,Sorvino Paul,Low Chuck,DiLeo Frank,Sivero Frank,Darrow Tony,Starr Mike,Vincent Frank,Adonis Frank,Biography,Crime,Drama,

Blank DVD Question??
Can you buy a blank dvd that has two blank sides? For instance I want to burn the movie goodfellas but it is longer than 120 min, so once I burn one side of the disc can I flip it and use the other side to burn the rest? Is there such thing? Or is there blank DVDs that you can buy that have more than 120min worth of space?

---

u can buy discs with larger space, u must use a 4.7gb disc? the next 1 up is 8.2gb a think. u can also split the movie in half and put it on 2 discs. havent u got a disc usage option when your converting files? sometimes il have a movie that takes up 108%, i just click on disc usage and it fits it on at 99% lol
Mark | Nov 16, 2009

---

no but if you might can continue your burn to include two movies, since you haven’t used all the space. especially this could be the case on a dvd-rw
John Jay | Nov 16, 2009

Dead Calm (1989) IMDB rating: 6.90 Plot: A married couple sail the Pacific Ocean to forget a tragic accident. After a month at sea, they sight a mysterious yacht and are boarded by its lone surviving crew member. When the husband discovers the yacht’s terrible secret, the crewman goes wild, kidnapping his wife and taking his ship. Terror on the high seas is center stage as the husband fights to keep the mystery yacht afloat and his wife battles the psychotic who’s assumed control of their ship.

buy cheap online and download Dead Calm

Actors: Zane Billy,Neill Sam,Mullinar Rod,Tilden Joshua,Shevtsov George,Long Michael,Thriller,Horror,

How do i deal with my depression, stress, and health issues?
My name is Aaron and i just turned 18 and i’m currently a senior in highschool…ok this may seem like my life story but these are all of my issues i have to deal with:
Last year around december i suddenly got sick with hives that have stuck with me for a whole year now. The Hives feel like my whole entire body is on fire and at one point i couldnt move an inch out my chair at home for a whole day so i wouldnt be in pain. Because of this illness i missed a whole entire semister of school so i lost all of friends as a result of this. I missed 6 months of school plus i couldn’t go outside for 2 more months and by the time school started i was well enough to go to school. Now after i had been at home through december of 08 to august of 09 i finally got to go to school but now alot is at stake for me, my father lost his job and he hasn’t looked for one for 6 months while he drinks himself to death, i had to pass all of my classes in order to graduate because i am a senior in high school. During this time between late august and right now i have been working my ass off in school while dealing with my dysfunctional family. Also during this time i had realized that i no longer have any friends all of them graduated and moved on with their lives, the others are in their other groups of friends having fun and some forgot who i was and some thought i was dead. So now i’m alone with no friends to hangout with, i no longer have a social life and i’ve never had a love life. I’m the shy type of guy so its kinda hard for me to reach out to others and i love the people i meet at school but i’m unable to show them how i feel. its not like i’m unattractive because i’m not but i just can’t socialize. i’m also sick still and i have to worry everyday about being engulfed in these painful hives. And to add to this i’m in danger or are failing in all of my classes and dealing with an illness that has controlled my life while having no one to talk to, not even my family, who are always argueing or coming home drunk throwing up in the bathroom. i’ve always been the outcast in my family and everywhere i have ever been. i’m the youngest and i am my mothers second child from a second husband. My mother and my father hate each other with a passion but only stayed together because they needed each other financially and because i was born. So whenever i do something wrong my mother says i’m just like my father. My father is the alcoholic who is killing himself with his drinking and iswasteing away at the savings with his liquor as we speak. All my life i have tried so hard to make sure i wouldn’t end up like my parents and my half-brother, who dropped out of high school and currently lives at the same house for ten years after dropping out like a moocher, but they always put me down or treat me without a shred of respect. I cant even live my life without being disrespected by them treated like whatever i say is stupid. i am not even allowed to have my own room and since my mom and dad hate each other they have separate rooms and for my whole life i have been forced to sleep in the same room with my mother (different beds btw) I am not like most teens my age i dont go out smoking weed and going on drinking binges and all that shit i’ve always tryed to make something of myself i’ve always resisted temptation so i can get out of this miserable condition i live in and there has always been something in my way. Everything was finally going fine last year, i was so damn close to achieving all that i wanted to do to make something of myself but my illness hit me right when i had an opportunity to be an intern at my local radio station with broadcast journalists, my dream job being the sports dude.But having my dreams dashed because of my illness devastated me and now the internship is unavailable and never will be able until i finish college, if i can actually get into one. With all this stress and disappointment i had no friends to talk to. i have had no one to talk to period. When it was my birthday ,on november 29, i looked on facebook continuously for a couple days to see if anyone would say happy b-day or some kind of recognition that i am alive and the only people that said it were only friends i found online who i will never meet in real life. I have become very depressed and suicidal at times with no one to talk to. no friends to make me feel better. no love life. I feel as though my life has no meaning anymore. The only thing that would calm me down would be long walks at night because i would look at the moon and feel better. Having all of the disappointment and reaching rock bottom is killing me slowly and the stress doesn’t help either. the stress to finish high school and have a normal social life and a normal life in general and failing to do so. I dont know what to do now i feel helpless. I need some advice on what i should do at this point. so are there any suggestions?

---

Hey Aaron.

As someone who has ADD (and had consequently had depression) that went undiagnosed until the middle of my college career, I feel like I can relate to a lot of the things that you mentioned (although we’re clearly not in the same exact boat). I haven’t always been shy, but did get to be more so around the time I hit adolescence, and likewise had trouble reaching out to people and developing friendships. Furthermore, as a result of my psychological situation, it became a real challenge for me to achieve in the classroom beginning in middle school, but especially once I got into high school. So, I can totally empathize with a number of the things that you’re going through.

The fact of the matter is - although it seems like some of my problems are more biological whereas yours seem to be largely circumstantial - the thing that ultimately did it for me was therapy, as well as some psychiatric medications in my case (e.g. Paxil, Vyvanse). Now, depending on your situation, it may not be entirely possible for you to see a therapist, although I would encourage you to do so if you can. More importantly, I would suggest that you find some source of advice/counsel from an adult who is willing to listen and support you in your challenges.

It sounds like you’re right on track in terms of your outlook on school and where you want to be in life. Furthermore, the fact that you recognize and can relate the problems that you’re going through bodes well for your being able to resolve them, hopefully in the near future.

While I can’t give you a foolproof answer to your social situation, I would encourage you to put yourself in casual settings where you’re around other people (i.e. outside of the classroom). There are a lot of ways to do this, including joining a club (at school, church, etc.), going to the gym, volunteering, or getting a job where you’d be able to interact with new people on a regular basis. Also, make sure you take care of yourself in other aspects of your life. Try to eat healthy, work out, get plenty of sleep, keep yourself mentally sharp, and stay in touch with your spiritual side (if you’re given to that).

Please realize that you’re not the only person who’s struggling with the kinds of issues that you’re facing at this time in your life. Also - at the risk of presenting myself as being another one of your online friends… do feel free to contact me if you’d like to talk about anything… It’s mikefolds54@yahoo.com.

So, best of luck, and just keep pushing. You’d be surprised how far your goals and sheer determination will get you in life.

Mike

Mike | Dec 11, 2009

---

Sounds like you’re dealing with quite a bit. Unfortunately, sometimes, our parents are not the model ones and they end up saying and doing things that hurt us. The best way to handle that is to accept them for who they are, what they say and do. Once you have accepted them (because you certainly can’t change them), they will be easier to deal with. (In other words, ignore them. Fighting will get you nowhere.) If you mother knows she can hurt you by what she says, then she’ll do it all the more. Gently walk away. I would also go see your doctor and tell him what’s going on. He will be able to help you with your depression. There’s a slew of antidepressants out there that he little or no side effects. I take Effexor for depression and social anxiety and absolutely love it. There are no side effects, I can take it in the morning and it works during the day. It’s also weight neutral - no loss, no gain. The situation you are in will not change without medicine intervention. You might want to see a therapist also about the anger issues that you have. God bless you.
Marie | Dec 11, 2009

---

My best advice is to not give up.

i know what your going thru, i have hallucinations and i miss a lot of school because of it. and my social life? down the drain. i’m a sophomore repeat. and its hard for me to keep up with my friends when they are so ahead of me. so they leave me out too.

but life IS worth living. i know it may seem impossible now, but there is always a calm after the storm. don’t give up yet, you have too much ahead of you.

i know you need a friend to talk to and share your problems, so here, e-mail me at emosoul110@gmail.com and we can be pen pals or something!

just know that there are people out there who care, and i’m one of them.

best of luck, i’m here if you need me,
Tien

p.s. happy belated birthday!
tien | Dec 11, 2009